Ishmael also experienced guilt during his time as a child soldier. When he was in the war he was otherwise known as a "killing machine". He couldn't see past his acts he couldn't understand how he could have done that. But it was all for survival. If he tried to fight against the rebels he would have been killed. He would have never see his family again and he wouldn't have been able to tell his story. So is killing people bad, yes, but when that is the only thing you can do to survive and to see your family again I think it would be necessary. Even though the rebels did end up killing his family he was reunited with his friends, and the family that he made on the battle field with the other boy soldiers.
Ishmael overcame his guilt when he was rescued by the UNICEF. Him and many of the other boy soldiers were rescued and brought over to America. For him it was hard at first but he found ways to take out his anger and eventually forgave himself for what he had done. Coming to America I think was very hard for him and all the boys. No one really knew what to say to them and they didn't really know how much to say to other people, what stories would they tell?
"Why did you leave Sierra leon?"
"Because there is a war"
"Did you witness some of the fighting?"
"Everyone in the country did"
"You mean you saw people running around with guns and shooting each other?"
"Yes all the time"
"Cool."
I smile a little.
"You should tell us about it sometime"
"Yes, sometime."










